I feel like I’ve done pretty well in keeping up with this project. In this segment, we took 2 trips (ie, I lived in my happy place, making it easier for me to share pictures). Looking through these I notice that all but two are iPhone pictures. The original intent of this project was for me to get better about my big camera – and I have mixed feelings about this. On one hand, I’m falling into the vortex again (I’ve yet to even look at my pictures from our trip to San Diego in March and all the pictures from this summer are languishing on my hard drive, per usual. I have thousands of pictures to edit and share so I may well still be blogging summer in March) so I’m still “failing.” On the other hand, I’m doing so much better at living in the moment and sharing daily, even if that means letting go of the anxiety and perfectionism that usually holds me back from doing so. So I’m going to call this a win. Summer is always a win for me. So this can be a win too!
This gorgeous boy and I had a deal with his teacher. There was something brave he needed to do and if he did I’d buy him a sundae (in addition to being wildly proud of my brave, sensitive boy). He did it and so we had a date today. We ended up doing lunch at Sonic instead of a sundae. I treasure these moments when it’s just me and one amazing, surprising kid. #100daysofJBsummer #100daysof10
Not a #100daysofJBsummer post, but…heart!
Tonight’s marshmallow roasting devolved into just burning stuff. Dad would be having a fit if he was here but I have to admit that I sit out here and burn stuff myself when no one’s looking. So I’m supervising. After months of really bad mental state I had a huge breakthrough in therapy this morning (still much work to do, but now I know what I’m working on) and life feels rosy today. We made it to the pool, had a fun friend over and now…fire. It’s going to be great. #100daysof10 #100daysofJBsummer #pyromaniac
The little girl cousins came over again today. Both girls were very needy (oh thank goodness I don’t have babies any more…) and Beckett was very, very jealous at the attention I was paying to them. He finally completely lost it and then disappeared. After the girls were both asleep I was walking through the family room and noticed that the couch looked weird. My buddy had crawled under the couch cover and fallen asleep! (Love the rip In the couch!? #reallife #ihavekids #kidsdestroyeverything ) #100daysof10 #100daysofJBsummer
See how the path has become the river!? That was our favorite part of today’s hike, the absolutely gorgeous one where we got lost and walked much farther than we’d planned but which my children didn’t complain about for one step. #werock. Now we’re home. One kid puked a whole bunch last night (and still feels nauseous) which I was tempted to call a fluke except now I have two others in tears, sure they’re about to vomit. That’s the way to celebrate being home, by puking. #100daysofjbsummer #100daysof10 #hikingadventures #hiking
I’m going to give it to you straight: days like today are the reason past Summers have ceased to exist in social media. I went on 2 trips last week and was so ecstatically happy the whole time. Patient, peaceful, centered, creative – everything I want to be. Then today the kids were fighting, my to-do list was lengthening and the old anxiety started creeping back in. I roared at my kids this afternoon just because I felt bad. I went to a barre class tonight and realized I have zero muscles. I was driving back home feeling defeated and down and trapped and just….yeah. Then I got out of the car and this toggle on my exercise shirt got caught in the car, stretching the elastic waaaaaaaay out until it released and snapped me in the butt. Hard. It left an immediate bruise. No, I’m not taking a picture. So. Um. The Universe might have just smacked me in the ass to tell me that something’s gotta change. What, I do not know. But I don’t like how I feel today. I want to feel like last week. #100daysofjbsummer #100daysof10 #theinstagramlab
Friday. My parents took the kids to see a movie. After weeks of intensive togetherness it was blissful to be alone. I used the opportunity to clean the f*ck out of my house, which had slowly become a trash heap over the end of the school year and the beginning of summer. After 5 I decided to enjoy a glass of beer while I cleaned. Not only was the beer beautiful but it also reminded me to stop cleaning before I burned out. Good beer. #100daysofjbsummer #100daysof10
I’m not 100% sure why I named this project after my kids when it’s really about me in the end. Hindsight and all that. Anyway. Saturday morning found me sitting in the sun with a cup and tea and my love, waiting for the best omelette I’ve ever tasted. I’m such a black and white person sometimes – nothing prepared me for the complexity of marriage. I’m grateful for the sunshine, tea and omelette moments ❤️ #100daysofjbsummer #100daysof10
The Solstice was weird this year. I was in meetings all day and finished the last one to see what promised to be a dramatic sunset. I rushed over to a new-to-me trailhead which was cool….but not at all what I was thinking, and started walking. The world was diffused by this amazing peach colored light, for a long time. The sunset itself was kind of odd, but I’m still feeling the glow from that light all these days later. I’m considering just basking in the glow it until it all becomes clear 🙂 The #Solstice was something else this year. sent via @latergramme #100daysof10 #100daysofjbsummer #sunset #cowx
Friday. Started before I was ready and then ran at breakneck speed with me always 2 steps behind (as evidenced by the fact I’m posting this now). Days like that are great reminders that I am capable. And also that people are paying way less attention than I assume they are to what I wear, how I didn’t fix my hair or how I accidentally danced to my music in Costco (twice). Also. I saw a rainbow ending at a bird of prey. #100daysof10 #100daysofjbsummer